" i must be without remorse or regrets as i am without excuse; for from the instant of my upsurge into being, i carry the weight of the world by myself alone without anything or any person being able to lighten it."

-jean-paul sartre

WHEN YOU SEE IT............

... fuck that scares me!

...at my door...

... or... window...

my perticular feeling as of last night

Onward!

I sit here

drunk now.

I am

a series of

small victories

and large defeats

and I am as

amazed

as any other

that

I have gotten

from there to

here

without committing murder

or being

murdered;

without

having ended up in the

madhouse.

as I drink alone

again tonight

my soul despite all the past

agony

thanks all the gods

who were not

there

for me

then.

...beautiful, inconsolable, broken heart...

Core 'ngrato

Nun te scruda!

...

i am sorry to all my potential clients and clients in waiting for my delay in answering your emails, i have been overwhelmed with drawings in the last few weeks, and did not want to bite off more than i could chew, i get many emails every day so it does add up, each and everyone is important but i just can't take on all the projects which come my way, i am a one man operation so sometimes it takes time to get to everybody, i am in the process of going through my inbox, thank you for your patience, and if anybody moved on good luck with your new tattooer

...

"suffering has been stronger than all other teaching... i have been bent and broken, but - I hope - into a better shape"

Charles Dickens

YEAH!

stupid show but poignant enough

isn't it ironic?

we ignore the ones who adore us, adore the ones who ignore us, love the ones who hurt us, and hurt the ones who love us... well no fucking more, we should take a stand and not betray our future or our well being, my heart has had enough, it will love and live freely, it will not stumble, yes it is forever inexperienced, but it will be 'joyeuse' (as Charlemagne's sword), it will triumph... or perish trying

not fun

too often the thing you want most is the one thing you cant have, desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out , desire can wreck your life and as tough as wanting something can be, the people who suffer the most are those who don't know what they want

I HAD A USE FOR THIS SONG ONCE

not fun

out of all the things i lost, i miss my innocence the most

FUN

gotta play with what 'ya got

fools day

happy april fools day, i am a fool... every broken day after another

I am afraid of being, on this shore,

a branchless trunk, and what i most regret

is having no flower, pulp, or clay

for the worm of my despair.

j. cash

bad luck wind been blowin' at my back

i was born to bring trouble to wherever i'm at

got the ghosts tattooed on my neck

when the ink start to itch then the black will turn to red

i was born in the soul of misery

pray you don't look at me, pray i don't look back

got a long line of heartache i carry it well

the list of lives i've broken reaches from here to hell

i was born in the soul of misery

hi

montreal

i am tired, sick, broken hearted and resolute...

in other words very content with life,

i want of everything and yet need only one

as far as i can fathom this infinite need

and see it in others eyes,

i do not foresee it for me

montreal before the snow